Breaking Free

I have not written for many months...so many reasons why. Physically I have been in crisis, spiritually I have been under attack, emotionally I haven felt empty and often at loss for the right words to express what I am going through. God has used this time to bring me to a place where He is the only refuge I have, the only place I can find peace and the only source of all of the answers I seek.

I have been chained to my life; a life with a chronic illness that medical professionals have told me has no cure. There have been many days none of what I have experienced that past several years have made any sense. I have argued with God, debated with Him, bargained with Him, and begged Him to heal me…and I have waited.    

Faith.  The bottom line is that He has been developing my faith.  There have been other lessons thrown in; compassion, empathy, patience, charity…but the main one has been faith. 

My faith has grown.  I feel my heart and soul becoming filled with so much joy no matter what my circumstances.  My body is physically ill but my spirit soars. 

…and now, God is sending me on a different journey, one He has laid before me.  He has said “if you want to be healed have faith, trust me and be healed”.  The chains are about to be broken…

“Take heart, daughter,” he said, “your faith has healed you.” And the woman was healed at that moment.

Matthew 9:22