Rainy Days

...rainy days can be cleansing times. The darkness sometimes stirs up a melancholy feeling inside me which leads to a time of pondering, soul-searching, dreaming and goal setting. Often I will have a time of crying out, praying and solitude that actually leaves me feeling refreshed once it is over.

When I was first diagnosed with dysautonomia I was angry...very angry. My life as I know it has been turned upside down. This new path I am on is uncertain. I often feel alone and scared...my human side vulnerable and exposed, probably what God wants. Deep in my heart I know that even as others in my life seem absent I have my God, He is always there, I am never alone...

Today it is raining...cold, dark...but I am not alone.